The Waiting Game - Tick.....Tock.....Tick....Tock

I do not like waiting - never have.  As I reach the final chapter, or pages, of a book I suddenly feel an urge to finish the book as soon as possible.  As a child I hated waiting for the final days before the start of vacation.  I wanted it to start here and now - still do.  These days, as I await the first printed copy of my first book - Avoiding the Blues - I am growing impatient.  When will it arrive?  Why is it taking so long?  Simultaneously I am awaiting news on a job.  Again, I wonder what is taking so long.

Waiting opens up a door in my brain.  Through the door walks an interesting character that never stops talking.  This dude instills doubt, worry and angst.  This person tells me to stop being so positive, that lots can still go wrong, that the deal is not done until the deal is signed, that if I get excited and hopeful I may come crashing down when the news, or result, of the waiting is not as I had hoped.

The result is that waiting is something I am not all that good at.  I need to find a way to get this little person to go on vacation and leave my brain so that the waiting can be enjoyable (think of all the potential and opportunities) instead of painful (gosh, it may all come crashing down).  After all time does fly when you are having fun.  Why put fun on hold while waiting?



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